Disappointed

I am angry. Haven’t felt like this in ages because my life (and mind) has been a happy happy filled flower without worries lately. Today I decided it was about time to educate my family about the cruelty that is happening in this world behind the scenes. I was worried about their reactions and I certainly knew that it would be no easy job to get them to the point I wanted them to be. I certainly accept their lifestyle because everybody is free to choose, but I wanted them to be conscious about what their choice was about. I wanted them to fully understand what they’re collaborating with.

I wanted to start by watching a documentary called Earthlings where the process of the meat and dairy production is shown as it happens. But as soon as it started my mother denied to keep watching it; she asked me to take it off. I obviously refused her proposition so she got furious like fire. She would not watch it by any mean.

It shocked me down. Truth was: she turned her head away from reality and decided to ignore the suffering and pain that humans are causing to our fellow earthlings.

I could not change her mind and I got so upset that I can’t even look at her anymore. Because she perfectly knows it is wrong however he decides to follow the “easy” way. Ignorance.

My heart is broken. I can not stand the situation of knowing that someone I love and admire because of her strength and determination, because of the endless love and kindness towards everyone has CHOSEN to ignore de pain and suffering animals face every day because of us.

I admit that I didn’t go vegan because I cared about animals, but the more I think about it the more connection I feel with nature and its creations.  I see a sustainable lifestyle free of cruelty, disease, pain and discrimination. I see equality, love, health and appreciation towards every creature on Earth. But I can’t spread the message. People knocks me down every time I try to show/tell/explain them a piece of reality. It’s hard and I am lost.

I’ve just lost a little faith in humanity. If people refuse to listen, how are we supposed to evolve?

"Nothing will benefit human health and increase chances of survival

for life on earth as much as the evolution to a vegetarian diet"

Albert Einstein

Today's sunrise

Woke up too early today due to the shifting habits from last week (when I was going to sleep at 8-9 in the morning and slept through the day). So my body has been naturally woken up at 4-5am since then.  Today instead of keep goofing in bed watching movies and unsuccessfully trying to get back to sleep I decided to go to the beach to see the sun rise.

AND MEN OH MEN! I enjoyed every second of it.

Before leaving home I prepared myself 1L of cold water and a big bowl of mixed fruit (stone fruit, mango and papaya). I put on my workout clothes took my bikini, towel, sunglasses, sunscreen and I was ready to go!

There was no-one in the streets. As I drove to the beach (approximately for 20 minutes), lights on and only some early cars I turned the music off. I wanted to enjoy my own presence. It was fulfilling. I cleared my thoughts and made some deep thinking about what the future holds (I might write about that in a different post).

Finally made it to the beach and what seemed like bad news where waiting for me there. Big, dark clouds where hiding the spot the sun was supposed to come out. In fact, there were some smaller clouds painted in red on the edges that made me think that the sun was already up. For a minute I regret the moment I had the idea of going there, but slowly the clouds faded away and the area turned redder and redder. OH! It really was beautiful. The sky evolved for about half an hour. The sun plaid hide and seek with its early vibrant colors until it got the altitude where the red, pink and purple where nowhere seen in the sky anymore. Therefore, it was still an amazing view due to the reflection on the water and some low yellow clouds that had remained there. Breathtaking.

It was the fresh start of a new day in front of me. Nature indulged me with a great show and I felt blessed.  It was really therapeutic because it seemed like was just me there; alone. The world wasn’t still awake and I had a privileged spot. I felt strong and powerful and I will use this memory whether I need a little self-confidence help from now on.

I’ll totally go again, and you should too!

Love, Tània.