Looking back to 2014 and forward to 2015
Last days of 2014 are quickly consuming themselves and with the New Year right in the corner most of us take this season to do some deep thinking. I have been concerned about what future holds and trying to figure out whether I am –or not– right where I am supposed to be.
Last days of 2014 are quickly consuming themselves and with the New Year right in the corner most of us take this season to do some deep thinking. I have been concerned about what future holds and trying to figure out whether I am –or not– right where I am supposed to be.
I have come to realize that I’m not. I now know that I can do better –for myself. And I’m scared; I know things are going to change this next year and that it is not going to be easy. I haven’t been that terrified in my life; because taking risks can mean two things: you win or you lose. And I can’t accept that one second option.
Truth is that next year looks scary from here, but you know what? That is totally fine. It’s ok to feel uncomfortable when you step out of your comfort zone; it’s ok to drag yourself into negative thoughts when you’re facing the unpredictable. The important thing is to jump in. Embrace the scariness and the unexpected fact of the future and rise to the occasion to get exactly where you’re supposed to be, where you ultimately belong.
I feel like it has taken me a lot to figure it all out and that I might have lost heaps of time trying to fit in somewhere that wasn’t my place, but at this point, I like to think that it was all part of a plan. Everything in this life has the right time to happen and I really feel like now it’s my time to fly.
2014 may not seem like a BIG year at first sight but it truly has been the most important year in my tiny existence yet. In 2014 I opened my mind to things that changed me completely; in 2014 I have faced some of the worst fears of mine; I also questioned –almost– everything around me, I build my own conscience and I am now aware of the power that my thoughts, my attitude and my actions hold. In the year 2014 I changed in a mind-blowing blissful and peaceful –yet brutal– way. The change is in me and I am perfectly well aware that this inner-transformation is going to keep evolving in the year to come and I can’t wait to see what this growth does to me.
It has been an amazing yet sad, horrific, chaotic, strange and confusing year; I’ve learned a lot about myself and about the world we live in and the creatures around us. I really hope that 2015 brings a lot more with it. Anyways, I know for a fact that the year coming is going to be better and the reason I’m so sure is because I WILL MAKE IT wonderful, better, happier, healthier and more positive.
So, if anyone is now reading this I am not going to wish you a good year 2015 but I will instead wish you the courage, the energy and effort to make it exceptional.
Tània.
